Wednesday, November 30, 2016

GazettE Survey


Today's date?November 30th
Name? Ash
Birthdate & Starsign? April 11th, Aries
Sex & age? Agender, 25
Location? Utah

Your hobbies & skills?
Reading, Writing
What's your character like?
Moody, I tend to think a lot to myself. Super awkward in social situations.
What's your favorite clothing-style?
I live on band T-shirts and jeans|boots.

Besides Gazette what other music do you like?
coldrain, Northlane, Against the Current, Misterwives

How long have you been a Gazette fan?
Ten Years

Why did you begin to like Gazette?
I really liked Aoi's acoustic guitar at the beginning of Cassis, I thought it was nice and the music was good to me. So there's that.

What do you like most about Gazette?
I like that they experiment with their music, and that when things get tough they don't just give up-they keep going because they all want it to work.

What do you dislike most about Gazette?
As of late the lack of recognition Aoi had been receiving, but I'm sort of at peace now with that. At least Uruha understands how Aoi felt, and I'm sort of glad that he talked to him at least.

What do you find Gazette Kai undefeated in?
I guess having money?
Favorite Gazette member?
Aoi.

What were your first impressions of each member?
Ruki: Honestly he was intense. I thought he'd be the mean one of the group, but he was so tiny.
Uruha: He was actually my second bias, but somehow Ruki took over that spot. I thought he was pretty.
Aoi:  I was actually looking at their old myspace for my friend, and I was like 'Who's that?' 'oh that's aoi' ' 'I like him.'
Reita:  What's with the noseband...?
Kai:  Japanese Michael Jackson

What song titles do you find best/most interesting?
Katherine in the Trunk I guess

Gazette in 1 word
: Magical
Ruki in 1 word: Little
Uruha in 1 word: Murderer
Aoi in 1 word: Baby
Reita in 1 word: Crybaby
Kai in 1 word: Money
PS Company in 1 word: Dunno


What was your first Gazette song?
Zakurogata No Yuutsu 
What were/are your thoughts on it?
It was upbeat, I liked it

The song with your favorite lyrics?
Vortex

Your favorite lyric from above song?
You can't take my soul away from me

Your favorite Gazette song?
I have a lot, but it's probably going to be VACANT

What Gazette song do you dislike the most?
I honestly don't know, guess you can say I don't care for Ogre.

What song makes you happy?
Suicide Circus, surprisingly

What song makes you sad?
Undying

What song makes you nervous?
UGLY

What song would you recommend to someone who doesn't know of Gazette?
Most likely Nausea&Shudder

What do you call the members?
Ruki: Ruki
Uruha: Ruha
Aoi: Aoi-shi
Reita: Rei
Kai: Kai


You have to plan some gazette merchandise for the next tour. What do you make?
I'd like some more parkas or whatever you call them with their logo on it. That'd be cool.

What would you like to see in a Gazette live?
Just everyone having a grand ol' time.

If you got to go on a date, who would you chose, where would you go, and what would you do?
Ruki: I'd honestly take Ruki to a haunted house, probably the Fear Factory. He would probably get a kick out of it.
Reita: Taking this boy out for ice cream!
Kai: He's buying me dinner. :)
Aoi: I'm taking him wherever his little heart desires.
Uruha: I'm gonna fight him.

If Gazette's line-up were changed, what would you think? O___O
I guess it would be different, just put Aoi on vocals pls.

Gazette’s parts/instruments are shuffled. Who does what?
Ruki: Drums
Uruha: Maybe bass
Aoi: Vocal
Reita: Guitar
Kai: guitar

Relate each member to an animal:
Ruki:Fox
Uruha: Lion
Aoi: Panther
Reita: Cockatiel
Kai: Cat

Gazette become teachers at a school. Who teaches what?
Ruki: Japanese/English
Uruha: Guitar
Aoi: P.E. [?]
Reita: Engineering
Kai: Home Economics.

You see Gazette on the street! What do you do?
Honestly I'd probably wave, show off my RAD Jacket and run away.

You're a guest in Reita's room! What do you discuss?
I'd just ask to watch anime with him

Ruki writes a brief note for your sake! What do you wish him to write?
I don't know, something nice I hope.

You see Uruha throwing something away in a public park. What do you do?
Fight him.

What do you think about the relationship of PS Company bands?
I don't know, they don't seem to interact as much anymore though they still respect Naoki and Kagrra,.

Choose a member to be your lover? Aoi...

Boyfriend?
Aoi....again.

Elder brother?
Reita

Best Friend?
Reita

Younger brother?
.....Ruki?

Has your love of Gazette given you any self-confidence or special feelings?
I honestly just feel at peace sometimes when I listen to them.

And last messages for people reading?
Hello.
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It was honestly fun to do that survey again, I had done it like 6 years ago and it's fun to see how much I've changed as a person and as a fan.

So there you go!

Monday, September 26, 2016

Questions about me and my significant other~

 1. What are your nicknames?
Nerd. That's it. 

2. How long have you been together?
In November, it'll be three years.

4. Who asked who out?
Matt asked me out.

5. Whose siblings do you see the most?
Probably mine. 

6. Do you have any children together?
Do Jimmy and Midget count?

7. What about pets?
I have a dog [Marley] and he has two cats [Jimmy and Midget] 

8. Did you go to the same school?
No, I went to Fremont and he went to...Box Elder. lmao I don't know.

9. Who is the most sensitive?
Probably me.

10. Where do you eat out most as a couple?
For a while it was Ihop, but we've been just eating Mcdonalds lately or cooking our own food. 

11. Where is the furthest you two have traveled together as a couple?
Park City, Utah I guess.

12. Who has the craziest ex's?
*shrugs*

13. Who has the worst temper?
...I don't think I've seen him mad, so I guess me.

 14. Who does the most cooking?
I do...I think.

15. Who is more social?
We're about the same.

16. Who is the most stubborn?
*shrugs* I guess me....

17. Who hogs the bed?
Matt...

18. Who wakes up earlier?
Me.

19. Where was your first date?
A place called Osaka in Layton. Sushis.

20. Do you get flowers often?
No, he just buys me nerd stuff.

21. How long did it take to get serious?
I think a month after we started dating is when he first kissed me lmao 

22. Who eats more?
I don't know? I think we eat about the same.

23. Who sings better?
Lmao I never heard Matt sing.

24. Who does the laundry?
We don't live together, so we do our own laundry the same?

25. Who’s better with computers?
Probably Matt.

26. Who drives when you are driving together?
I can't drive so Matt.

27. Who picks where you eat?
So here's how it goes down.
"I want food." [Me]
"What kind of food?" [him]
".....food that I can eat."
"oh my god." 


28. Who wears the pants?
...we both wear pants?

29. Who has the better sense of humor?
Probably Matt.

30. Who eats more sweets?
Me. Who wants donuts, all the time.

Monday, September 19, 2016

My favorite vocalists.

I wanted to title this super fancy, but nah.

Please note that these are just my personal favorites, and also that I might be crying in the middle of this blog post because one vocalist is.....well I don't want to talk about it.

This will also be in no particular order, though my top three will be first.

So let's move on to the first one! [And you should know who it is, but....]


Ruki|the GazettE

I'm going to be the first to admit here, I probably praise Ruki a little bit too much. I have this weird obsession with him, aside from my complete obsession with Aoi [but that's another post completely]. I can't seem to really hate this guy or hate the way he tries to be 'edgy', because I have a soft spot for him and 99% of that is because of his amazing voice.

Even before I heard him sing in person|live, I knew he had great vocals. But hearing him sing the first few notes in DOGMA astounded me. It never ceases to amaze me what he can do with his voice, and honestly I don't think I'll ever grow tired of it. Personality wise, I do like him. I don't really fantasize about him, but I would like to talk with him at least once about some things.

His lyrics have also helped me through my darkest moments, so I feel like I owe a lot to him and his insight. 

And I'm really sorry, I will listen to Cassis over and over until the day I die.

Masato|Coldrain


Masato did something to me that no other vocalist has done since Ruki, he made something resonate inside of me. His lyrics helped me get through the day, and honestly there are two other vocalists on this list that did that for me so it was refreshing to find another vocalist who can very well do the same. 

If you haven't listened to Coldrain yet, I really suggest you do. Because when I first heard 'Six Feet Under', I was definitely hooked. And when I saw them for the first time, well-it certainly was amazing! And Masato's voice is so amazing live! He puts on a damn good show, and he genuinely is a nice person too.

He's so kind to his fans, and that's what I love about him. I was so nervous both times I met him [and took pictures with him], but he was so kind and patient.
 
I don't know what else to say, other than to listen to his band? Also, if you get the chance-listen to his Acoustic version of Gone and the Story. His voice is BEAUTIFUL.
 

Isshi|Kagrra,

I did tell you I'd be crying in the middle of this blog post. Because I still miss him, he really was taken away from us too soon. A part of me feels like he knew that he would die, but I still deny any rumor that he died by his own hands. As a person close to him stated that Isshi was not that type of person.

He had a unique voice and talent in the Visual Kei world. He brought something to the movement that I haven't seen any other artist do before. I feel like he was loved by many of his comrades as well, and his lyrics were so creative and beautiful.

And sadly, I feel like he was underrated. Overshadowed by others, and it made me sad when my old friends criticized his voice because they said it was 'too high pitched'. Ah well, I suppose not everyone is going to like his voice.

....I miss him. [I'm sorry, I don't know what else to say ;A;]

Chrissy Costanza|Against the Current

Honestly, I didn't really consider her a favorite vocalist until I saw her perform at Warped Tour. It wasn't until I heard her sing the first few notes of 'Running with the Wild Things' that I ever thought that I'd be more than just a casual listener. Granted, still a casual listener-they're a young band who I feel has a younger fanbase.

Doesn't mean I still don't jam out to their new album 'In Our Bones' on Spotify here and then. I fell in love with her vocals in 'Chasing Ghosts', but I still say they're your typical Fueled by Ramen band. I don't think that will deter them from growing as a band however. Her best songs on that album are Chasing Ghosts and In Our Bones, because they show her range and shows what she can do with her vocals.

As a person, she's nice too! I didn't ever meet her at Warped Tour like planned, but she was so sweet with her fans. [Though some of them were way too old to be oggling her the way they were, which was sort of creepy. Mostly males hogging the center|front while the female fans were in the back...]


 Marcus Bridge|Northlane

For my last vocalist, I'll have to choose this guy. I'm still a noob when it comes to all things Northlane, but I saw these guys back in November and they really impressed me. I felt bad cause I had to go home early because of work the next morning, but the minute they come back I'm definitely going to that concert.

I don't know Marcus very well as a person though, but if you have a chance to listen to Northlane I highly suggest it.
 
 
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And that's about it for my favorite vocalists, I didn't want to make it dreadfully long since I still have others so maybe that'll be another post for another day.
 
Thanks!


Wednesday, August 3, 2016

Warped Tour 2016 Salt Lake City Utah [and some recounts of 2013]

Warped Tour usually isn't my cup of tea. Before 2013 I hadn't even considered going to one, and I had only gone that one time because a band I liked at the time was going to be there. With my luck however, the band decided to be like "lol we don't want to do Warped Tour now." and dropped the fuck out. [I have sense lost interest in that band, oh well.]

Admittedly, my time at the 2013 Warped Tour wasn't a bad one. My brother, who I went with, wanted to see a Japanese band that he started to like. And since he knows I like Japanese bands, he dragged me to their set. The band was Crossfaith, and while their set was amazing and I liked watching the band play.....I still have yet to put their album on my computer. [I'm such a lazy person sometimes.]

Hiroki of Crossfaith
Warped tour 2013
I got to meet the band, though my interaction with the band is a little iffy. The only one who really stuck in my mind was Hiroki, because he was so friendly and smiled a lot. The others were probably just really tired and have met a lot of people already, but they were nice enough to give me a signed poster. And I got a tank top. [I plan to give it to Reida, but I forgot where I put it.]

So the rest of the time after Crossfaith was a little iffy, because as I said-I had gone there for one band and they dropped out. So I was just hanging around, watching Vegans run about handing out pamphlets and listening to some of the bands that were playing.

Fast forward three years later, and I got tickets to Warped Tour again JUST to see Coldrain. [I kept thinking with my luck, they'll have to drop out for whatever reason. I have a mindset like this ever since the first Warped, orz]

However, luck was on my side and they played their SLC date. Having already seen them before, I knew that the show [despite being thirty minutes] was going to be amazing. And it was! Since this is their first Warped Tour, I can only hope this opens so many more doors for them to possibly headline their own tour in the States.

 My brother and I got to the place early, because I told him if we miss Coldrain because of him sleeping in-he will go to sleep permanently. [Just kidding just kidding!] It ended up that we were right in coming early, as Coldrain was second to play after Cruel Hand.

When we arrived, I immediately got maps and located the stage|the merch tent. I found the Hopeless Records tent first though, and he led me back to the stage where the merch was. The girl who was selling merch was really pretty, and really cool|nice. When I bought two shirts, she gave me a pair of chopsticks.

Two shirts I bought+the complimentary chopsticks.
Both shirts cost 25 dollars each.
 After that we went to eat, but eating at Warped Tour is always a little expensive and the food I got was supposed to be a Teriyaki chicken but tasted nothing like it. I was a little disappointed. [And my Dr. Pepper tasted iffy, if you don't know me-I get really peeved if my Dr. Pepper is messed with....]

My brother really wanted to see this band that was playing early, but I decided to just hang around the Monster South stage until Coldrain came on. Cruel Hand played before them, they took forever getting set up and getting on stage though. I remember while waiting for them, I knelt down because my stomach was hurting [stupid Chicken Teriyaki!] and I almost fainted cause I saw Sugi through the gates.

There was also Yoko, but before I could snag a photo for my friend-he looked my way and I got shy and went back to watching Cruel Hand set up.

Cruel hand came on, played their set and the only thing I have to say about them is that they're very interesting and people look stupid when they mosh sometimes. The lead singer jumped off stage during the last song, and the crowd nearly hurt the two girls in front [who were also waiting for Coldrain].

Then it was time. I managed to snag the middle, right in front of Masato. :D

The band was setting up, so I got to see a lot of Ryo, Yoko, Katsuma, and Sugi. Though Sugi only came out to do a few things, then went back. One thing I remember is that Yoko was dorking around a little bit, and he drummed on Ryo's back and Ryo sort of gave him a look like 'what'. Yoko just walked off with a smile on his face.

I kept sending pictures of the two to Reida, but when I tried to snag one final photo of Ryo for her-Yoko was like 'lol nope' and walked in front of Ryo as I was taking the picture.

He knew what he was doing.

They disappeared a little while the band next to us played, and after that it was their turn and the members came out accordingly with Masato coming on last. I can't really explain the feelings when I finally saw Masato though, as he's my favorite out of the group [along with Katsuma *A*].

I had the setlist saved on my phone-but since it's destroyed I'll have to do this from memory.

The first song they played for sure was the Revelation, I believe after that it was Wrong, Runaway, The War is On, No Escape and then Gone was the last song they played. I believe that was all, as they usually only play 6 songs during a 30 minute set.

Before I get to the member's actions [and my mind is already foggy], I'll have to say I was a TAD bit disappointed I didn't get to hear EVOLVE again live. I fucking love that song, BUT I did hear it back in November so.....

So since I'm a lazy fuck, I'll just put their actions in a bullet list as opposed to writing it all down in a couple of paragraphs.

  • Ryo moves around a lot, and he makes the most interesting faces. [He's basically a walking meme, just like Reita.] 
  • Ryo also raised his fist a lot and pounded his chest. He wore a bandana over his mouth the first half of the set, but took it off the last.
  • Also about Ryo, his sound system might have been off during the War is On because he was playing around with something and he looked perplexed. He talked to Katsuma quietly, and Katsuma made a :O face at him. But they continued on with the show, so it either got fixed or I might have been overthinking and nothing was wrong at all.]
  • Sugi and Ryo showed love to Katsuma a lot actually, they were facing him quite a lot.
  • Katsuma, my sweet Katsuma, I'm sorry I didn't pay much attention to what he was doing. He was playing drums as always, always killing it.
  • I didn't really notice anything Sugi was doing either, but I did catch his guitar pic. [Well I reached out for it, and the guard gave it to me. Which caused one of the girls next to me to glare at me....] 
  • Masato moved about the stage a lot, but he was in the middle for most of the show. He demanded we jump a lot.
  • He sort of did this rap thing at the end of Runaway, like did the hand movements like a rapper would. He sort of reminded me of Ruki LOL 
  • Masato and Yoko were smiling a LOT. [I think Sugi was too, but again I wasn't paying attention.] 
I'm going to be posting pictures of the live [which I took during No Escape I believe, but I did it quickly so I could enjoy the rest of the show. Taken by my ipod cause my phone -which is now broke anyways- is a piece of shit.] PLEASE DO NOT REPOST, if you do post it anywhere-give credit...please.


The Meet and Greet
So once again I am lazy, and will put things in a bullet point because I'm really tired. I'm going to try and edit this once I'm not as tired, but it might not happen either. So first things first, I am a very awkward person to begin with and I already sort of embarrassed myself in front of Masato before-so I was hoping maybe he wouldn't remember me much.

  • After a couple of minutes of panicking, trying to find a line for the meet+greet I found it. Met and talked to another fan in front of me. [She was the nicest fan there, god bless her.]
  • I looked over and Masato looked at me, but he didn't really smile-I just took it as he was preoccupied. Though this sort of made me nervous.
  • My brother had to buy me the Revelation so they could sign it, as I had nothing for them to sign at the beginning. [The album itself was 10 dollars, I needed the Physical copy anyways.] 
  • When I turned the corner and it was almost my turn, Katsuma noticed me and smiled a little while saying 'hi'. 
  • When it was my turn, Masato actually said hi to me-but I was too shy to say hi back really. So I just smiled at him.
  • After that I did muster up the courage to tell them I had seen them back in November, but he didn't hear me at first and leaned in to hear better and he smiled at me. 
  • They signed the album for me, but I was just going to leave. However I took one final look at Katsuma and asked him for a hug. He obliged, then Masato was sort of like 'hey' so I hugged him too. Then I sort of was like 'might as well hug the rest of them' and went to Ryo and hugged them and such. I noted that Sugi was like not for human contact? But he hugged me anyways? And Yoko hugged me last, and he had a smile on his face [a smile of an angel...]. I pulled away from him and he said "Have a good day!!" 

They also were nice enough to shake my brothers hand and sign his hat.

THEY WERE ALSO NICE ENOUGH TO LET ME TAKE A PHOTO WITH THEM.

Katsuma, Masato [ugh, me] RxYxO, Sugi, and Yoko

After that I hung around while my brother checked out different bands, I wanted to make sure he at least got his money's worth. He really likes Chelsea Grin and he got to see them. We did go see Yellowcard and they played a few older songs, but also announced they were disbanding so.....

The last show I wanted to see was Against the Current and of course they played last. And that was it!

Chrissy of Against the Current

Overall this experience was far better than 2013, let's hope to more years of Warped Tour with Coldrain!

OR

Coldrain headlining their own tour in the U.S.!

One can only hope!

Thursday, July 7, 2016

Two months late-but a memory of my first real Vacation.

Of course I've taken time off for myself before, but never like this. Up until May, I haven't really gone out of state [Nevada doesn't count, that was for a work party and it was bleh]. If I took time off, it was for in-state things like Anime Banzai and certain concerts. There aren't very many bands even that I would go out of state for-unless it'd be for the GazettE/Coldrain.

The trip to LA/Anaheim was spontaneous, the minute I bought tickets for the GazettE concert back in January my brothers and I started planning. I was so anxious. I didn't want to fly at first, but now that I think about it I'm glad that we did. It was my first time flying, and it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. I was surprisingly calm the entire ride.

On the Second of May we flew out to LA. We left pretty late in the morning, but early enough to make it to Cali by noon. When we arrived at the airport we had to go get our rental car [my brothers didn't make me pay for it, since I wasn't driving. I did give money for gas though.] After that it was an hour drive to our resort in Anaheim.

I was thoroughly against staying in Anaheim at first. As I said, it was an hour drive [two hours if the traffic was super horrible]. I wanted to be near the concert venue, I was even adamant about it for the longest time. However, Jeff insisted that we stay in Anaheim because he wanted to go to Disneyland, which he ended up doing when I went to the concert. [It all worked out in the end, oh well.]
view from our hotel

When we got to the resort we hung out for a while, walked around the area and looked for things that we could possibly get as souvenirs. Granted, I didn't really find anything FROM California that I wanted, I ended up just buying for my family. The only thing I got from the trip was my RAD Jacket and a few items from Reida.

That night was I supposed to meet Reida, we had originally planned to eat at a Korean restaurant. We drove back, hung around Korea town for a while [all the while I'm searching for the venue]. It was a little while away from the venue, but we walked to the Wiltern and that's when I met Reida. We nearly ran across into oncoming traffic to hug each other. My brother Paul had to be like "Ashley" before I realized I couldn't cross quite yet.
I still laugh at the guy, but snagged this photo.



Meeting Reida was fun, since we've been talking for almost two years at that point I believe. We always talked about meeting, I even had made plans [that sadly failed] of going to Seattle for the fun of it and meeting her. I never really thought that we'd be able to meet like this however. When I was asked my both my Mom and brother why I didn't choose to Dallas show, I simply said I based my decision off where my friends were going. Which most of them were going to LA, but I ended up only meeting/talking to Reida.

We went out for Korean BBQ, which I already forgot the name of the Restaurant that we went to. It was one of those restaurants that you had to cook your own meal, and since I don't know much about Korean food [other than the one near my work] I was a bit nervous. It was still good food however, and it was nice to hang out with Reida and talk to her a bit.

I don't remember much of what we talked about, but we simply talked about GazettE and the concert the next day. After that we gave Reida a ride to Little Tokyo to meet up with her hotel mates [?] and went back to Anaheim to go to sleep after that. After we dropped her off though, my brother said he needed to go to a restroom so we stopped at a nearby Mcdonalds and the area was sort of shady so we were nervous.

Ended up having to pay to use the restroom, which I never heard of. Also, some guy tried to sell him his cell phone. [?]

I surprisingly went to bed easily that night.

I was first to go to sleep, and first to wake up! Not gonna talk about the actual concert, that was in another post before this one. I arrived there at around 9 in the morning, got breakfast [which was the only meal I had all day] and hung around until the concert started up.

That night I couldn't sleep. I was so hyped up after the concert, that I went to 'sleep' for two hours and woke up at 4 and stayed up the rest of the night. I ended up staying out in the balcony so I wouldn't bother my brothers with anything. I listened to the GazettE while looking out at the night and pondering the concert.

At around 8 I woke my brothers up, I seriously needed an actual meal in my stomach and I needed it soon or else I was gonna die. [Okay I wouldn't die, but]

We didn't really have a plan for that day, but I really wanted to see the Ocean. So we decided to head out to breakfast, then get ready for the beach. I didn't pack any swimwear, which I wish I had-at the same time though it wouldn't matter. It was too cold to go into the water. We had originally planned on going to Venice beach, but decided on Newport as it was closer and we didn't want to deal with LA traffic again.

Balboa beach was really REALLY pretty. I felt at peace there. I didn't even have time to have post-concert depression because I was so happy here. We didn't do much other than stick our feet in the water, find a restaurant with some good seafood in and shopped around. I got my dad a hoodie, and my mom some trinkets.

I forgot what I had gotten my sister though, but I got Harley a seashell that he could hear the ocean from.

I can't really think of anything else to say about the trip, other than the food was REALLY good and I miss it. Surprisingly the best meal I had the entire trip was at the LA international airport. We only ate Asian food too! We found a local Filipino restaurant and she made us homemade Pork Adobo....mmmm...

I also got to try bibinka for the first time.

Salmon

Pork Adobo and Bibinka
 The next way we went home!

And that's about it for my Cali trip!


Thursday, May 5, 2016

~The GazettE~

If I had gone back in time and told my 15 year old self that I would see the GazettE, actually hear them with my own two ears-I would have laughed.

It had been a dream I had sort of given up on, but came to terms that even if I never saw them that I would still support them no matter what. And then I had the opportunity, and what a blessing it has been for me. I'm going to be honest. I don't like to go places as much, I don't usually like crowds [unless it's for a concert] and I don't usually like to be social.

But this vacation/concert has had a good effect on me. I don't even know how to explain my emotions right now.

The day of the live, I waited 9 hours to get in. At first I wasn't too happy, I'm sorry to Reida [and Mikki, who I didn't even say hi to....]. God bless Reida though, I didn't really have a group to hang out with and to save my spot to go do anything so she offered food to me and what not. And god bless the girl two people away from me, during the fourth hour I was getting a little tired and I put my head down.

She tapped my shoulder and gave me a bag of candy, to at least get some sugar in me so I wouldn't fall asleep. It was my own fault for not preparing, I really just wanted to be at the live early. And I had only eaten Mcdonald's that morning and the only thing I had to drink that whole day was a sprite. [Which might explain why after the live, I got a charlie horse in both my legs....and I couldn't walk for two hours.]

When they moved VIP line to the other side, I was a little sad. And the two girls in front of me kept having people come and cut everyone off. I know they were in a group, but it was rather irritating because we've been there for 9 hours...

Anyways, moving on from the negative!

I thought I couldn't get in line for Heresy, I explained to the staff lady that I didn't get an email when they switched sites and I had to switch emails. She said I had to do something with my e-mail, which made sense. But she let me show her my Heresy card and my ID and she gave me a bracelet. I moved to the fanclub line, and I got to talk to this fan from Japan for a while.

She was super sweet, and told me that she went to both San Fran and LA. She said she attends most their lives in Japan. She kept apologizing for her English, though I don't really mind.

Then we were let in, I put my gift to all of them in Ruki's box. [My mom had made them a card, it was the only thing I gave them. I hoped he liked it.]

I only had eyes on one item of merch and that was the jacket, I was super happy that I got it.

Despite being irritable at first, I got to my seat [WHICH BTW, was super confusing to find. I ended up sitting in someone else's seat, and when I found my seat-someone was sitting on it. Thank god they were super nice about it!]

I ended up being center, and being able to see all the members [aside from Aoi at times, and Reita] perfectly.

I really cannot explain what I felt when they stepped out onto the stage. Or when Ruki started singing.

The whole live seemed like a blur, but I was determined to make the memory count. I can't even remember being this happy, in a super long time. It was like everything that was wrong in my life stilled and I was in a place where nothing could touch me. The girls next to me were rocking out, the girl even hit my arms with her hair a couple of times.

When Vortex played, and Suicide Circus-I tried to headbang but it wasn't happening. [I'm super awkward at it, idk. Also during Vortex I almost yelled at the guy in front of me, as he was recording it and he kept putting it in my way! I'm short enough as it is, I was super happy at the balcony because I didn't have to stand on my tippy toes so I was mad when I had to for Vortex!]

-cough- Anyways....

When FITB started playing, I was like 'Fuck it', looked at the girls next to me and started to headbang. [My neck is paying for it now, thanks Ruki.]

Ruki said "Turn the fuck up" at least twice, and I swear he looked up at the balcony at the fans up there and I believe he pointed at us. [HE MIGHT NOT HAVE, BUT LET ME HAVE THIS MOMENT IN MY HEART.]

I have chills just thinking about it.

When he came out for encore wearing the US flag like a shawl [?], and he turned to us and asked us if we were ready. I about died when we screamed louder the second time he asked and he was like "SHUT THE FUCK UP!"

I literally felt the floor shake underneath me that entire live.

And it was the most amazing feeling in the world.

When they bowed, the girls next to me [who said hi earlier and asked me if I was having fun!] grabbed my hand and we held them above our heads. [And now we're friends, yay!] I even bowed with them....omg.

That's all I can recall, though I can barely manage to come up with coherent words even now.....

Best....day...of...my...life.

Monday, April 25, 2016

Ramblings.

It's weird, a week from tomorrow I'll finally see my Dream Concert.

Sadly, I won't be able to meet them-but I've learned to be gracious to even have this opportunity. I've followed the GazettE ever since I was in High School, it was ten years ago that I popped in the mix that my friend had made me into the CD player and gave them a shot. At the time I thought it was just another band I'd casually listen to, I never thought that I would go this far and for this long.

It got to the point where even my family began to notice my obsession [though usually it's not hard for them to notice, especially my sister.]. At first they made fun of it, even to this day they poke fun at it-but they never discouraged me either.

When I was in High School especially, I dealt with a lot of anxiety and depression. Listening to that mixed CD [which ironically, I still have] when I got home from school calmed it a little.

Little by little, I interacted with the fandom-got to see some of my friends see their moment and was jealous and scared that I never would get the chance. Then I had thought to myself 'Well, why does it matter if I see them or not? I still support them no matter what they do.' I suppose I felt that I would never have that moment, that I wouldn't be able to see them.

I haven't eve come to the realization that I am seeing them quite yet. I won't be able to believe it until it actually happens.

Ah, I'm just gonna end this here before it gets too sappy.

Goodnight.

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