~The GazettE~

If I had gone back in time and told my 15 year old self that I would see the GazettE, actually hear them with my own two ears-I would have laughed.

It had been a dream I had sort of given up on, but came to terms that even if I never saw them that I would still support them no matter what. And then I had the opportunity, and what a blessing it has been for me. I'm going to be honest. I don't like to go places as much, I don't usually like crowds [unless it's for a concert] and I don't usually like to be social.

But this vacation/concert has had a good effect on me. I don't even know how to explain my emotions right now.

The day of the live, I waited 9 hours to get in. At first I wasn't too happy, I'm sorry to Reida [and Mikki, who I didn't even say hi to....]. God bless Reida though, I didn't really have a group to hang out with and to save my spot to go do anything so she offered food to me and what not. And god bless the girl two people away from me, during the fourth hour I was getting a little tired and I put my head down.

She tapped my shoulder and gave me a bag of candy, to at least get some sugar in me so I wouldn't fall asleep. It was my own fault for not preparing, I really just wanted to be at the live early. And I had only eaten Mcdonald's that morning and the only thing I had to drink that whole day was a sprite. [Which might explain why after the live, I got a charlie horse in both my legs....and I couldn't walk for two hours.]

When they moved VIP line to the other side, I was a little sad. And the two girls in front of me kept having people come and cut everyone off. I know they were in a group, but it was rather irritating because we've been there for 9 hours...

Anyways, moving on from the negative!

I thought I couldn't get in line for Heresy, I explained to the staff lady that I didn't get an email when they switched sites and I had to switch emails. She said I had to do something with my e-mail, which made sense. But she let me show her my Heresy card and my ID and she gave me a bracelet. I moved to the fanclub line, and I got to talk to this fan from Japan for a while.

She was super sweet, and told me that she went to both San Fran and LA. She said she attends most their lives in Japan. She kept apologizing for her English, though I don't really mind.

Then we were let in, I put my gift to all of them in Ruki's box. [My mom had made them a card, it was the only thing I gave them. I hoped he liked it.]

I only had eyes on one item of merch and that was the jacket, I was super happy that I got it.

Despite being irritable at first, I got to my seat [WHICH BTW, was super confusing to find. I ended up sitting in someone else's seat, and when I found my seat-someone was sitting on it. Thank god they were super nice about it!]

I ended up being center, and being able to see all the members [aside from Aoi at times, and Reita] perfectly.

I really cannot explain what I felt when they stepped out onto the stage. Or when Ruki started singing.

The whole live seemed like a blur, but I was determined to make the memory count. I can't even remember being this happy, in a super long time. It was like everything that was wrong in my life stilled and I was in a place where nothing could touch me. The girls next to me were rocking out, the girl even hit my arms with her hair a couple of times.

When Vortex played, and Suicide Circus-I tried to headbang but it wasn't happening. [I'm super awkward at it, idk. Also during Vortex I almost yelled at the guy in front of me, as he was recording it and he kept putting it in my way! I'm short enough as it is, I was super happy at the balcony because I didn't have to stand on my tippy toes so I was mad when I had to for Vortex!]

-cough- Anyways....

When FITB started playing, I was like 'Fuck it', looked at the girls next to me and started to headbang. [My neck is paying for it now, thanks Ruki.]

Ruki said "Turn the fuck up" at least twice, and I swear he looked up at the balcony at the fans up there and I believe he pointed at us. [HE MIGHT NOT HAVE, BUT LET ME HAVE THIS MOMENT IN MY HEART.]

I have chills just thinking about it.

When he came out for encore wearing the US flag like a shawl [?], and he turned to us and asked us if we were ready. I about died when we screamed louder the second time he asked and he was like "SHUT THE FUCK UP!"

I literally felt the floor shake underneath me that entire live.

And it was the most amazing feeling in the world.

When they bowed, the girls next to me [who said hi earlier and asked me if I was having fun!] grabbed my hand and we held them above our heads. [And now we're friends, yay!] I even bowed with them....omg.

That's all I can recall, though I can barely manage to come up with coherent words even now.....

Best....day...of...my...life.